I want to go home. I hate most aspects of this corps and it is not unfounded. Please, do not treat me like a child. Do not. Do not. I am an adult with adult responsibilities, do not screw me over. Do not toy with me. I want to be challenged. I want to feel. I want leadership I can respect and emulate, not those that I struggle to balance a following while still maintaining an integrity of truth in my musicianship. The hierarchy and the games are old. Do not change policies in the member handbook mid-tour against a contract I already signed. I want to be responsible for myself. It’s all everyone has ever expected of me so do not dare to take that identity away from me.